Forgive Me Soul

Day in and day out, I’m filled with doubt.

Time ticks by and life is dry.

No one seems to understand my mind battle.

Meet me. Really see me.

I’m distinctly kind, but harsh and wild.

I’m an adult who gets on with the heart of a child.

I cry, I hate, I love and I fake.

My mind is on but I’m not always awake.

I act as I should but not always how I want.

I want to be kind

Slow Down….

Think and Soak It All In….

Soak up the wind, rain, dirt

Oh, and the sun! My favorite of them all.

How I long for these beauties but my soul is withdrawn.

I do as I’m told and avoid being blunt.

I feel like I’m smothered and do not dare to be proud.

Life is a blur and inside me is loud.

I look to she, him or them to make me feel like myself again.

Validation seems to briefly fill the void until I feel I am no good.

I seek the comfort from around.

I cannot bear to be without sound.

Cause when it’s quiet, I hear my pain.

I hear my emptiness and unearth my soul that’s vain.

Life is on mute and the power is out.

My soul is victim to this beating that my mind can’t seem to go without.

Please, soul! I beg! Come out again.

Envelop these bones in a thirst for life.

Just a flicker of love is all I ask. Please!

Life is not stopping and oh –

The sun – it’s shining for us to see…

I promise to work on my love of me.

From my mind, I set you free.

With Love,

Kaitlyn Marie ❤️

Failure

You know what sucks?!?!

The shame of setting a goal but not sticking to the actions required to get you there.

That’s where I’m at today. Sitting in my self-inflicted disappointment. A big old shame story.

I had a boozey, graham cracker filled weekend that dismantled my whole week of health goal chasing.

#firstworldproblems 🙄 – YES.

But hear me out…

I’ve wanted to build the strongest body I’ve ever had in my life, but I’ve always been my own worst enemy by placing conditions on this goal.

I struggled with eating disorders for two years that I’m so thankful I was able to overcome.

I’ve always, always struggled with loving my body from 118 – 165 lbs, it’s been a journey.

I thought love from others would come when I was “skinny”. 😅

Lack of love for myself cut me off from so many experiences.

Having a strong body I admire has always felt like the symbolism for overcoming the struggles with my body and food.

My relationship with food, lack of energy, emotional ups and downs and managing my time has always been the excuse reel I’ve called upon for comfort.

I do believe that staying persistent is key, but I see persistence only goes so far when you’re not giving 100%!

I’m thankful for my trainer today for calling me out and not letting me lean on my excuses.

Shame sucks and the truth hurts but sometimes it’s what we need!

I am committing to the goals I’ve set and to living a life I’m proud of, for me.

No one else.

What dreams ebb and flow out of your life because of that excuse reel?

Seriously – make yourself accountable!

What excuses have you had? Why?

Check those excuses and push yourself!

Find someone that truly holds you accountable in life.

Better yet, aim to be the someone that holds you accountable.

I try and I persist. This is where I’m at and I’m on my way to the best I’ve been.

Self-limiting believes BE GONE!

Who else is on a fitness journey?

Do you believe I will ever be able to say no to graham crackers?! 😆

With Love,

Kaitlyn

Jumping Into My Dreams

What the whaaat?! I’ve joined a mysterious online, affiliate marketing company?!

You know, those people that post about their amazing lives and how their system can help you emulate their existence?

Yes, I did; here’s why:

1. I was never given a sales pitch. 

No one ever spammed me. I never felt uncomfortable and throughout the entire process, and the connections always felt real.

Now that I’ve been in the biz for a bit now, I can confirm that the connections certainly ARE real. Real amazing, motivating and life altering.

2. Data doesn’t lie. 

I’m all about the data and the initial webinar was certainly full of it.

  • In the US alone, online sales hit $35.5 billion in 2017!
  • Worldwide commissions from online sales pays out $200 million every day!
  • Within the next 5 years, affiliate marketing will be worth $6.8 billion!

This industry is expected to grow and if you don’t learn the skills now, you’ll be behind! With the 90% automated system, people are leaving their 9-5 jobs in as little as 3-4 months. Families are traveling the world and Bali seems to be a popular travel destination for our team members.

Maybe I’ll add Bali to my vision board?

3. I learned so much with my free-trial.

After the webinar, I was given a free trial to soak up as much info as I wanted before making the final decision. The platform includes over 20 training modules that walk anyone through how to set up their online marketing business, CLICK by CLICK.

I obsessed over the training and the product with research. I’m always learning,  but I wanted to soak up as much info before my trial ended!

I woke up at 3 am just to read and learn more about what I was about to potentially jump into. With more outside research and analyzing from different angles, I became more excited!

4. After my trial ended, my mentor ship and learning didn’t. 

Whenever you fork over money to an organization or person that sold you, there’s always that fear if they’ll actually follow through after they have the holy greenery.

I communicate with my coach on a day-to-day basis. She truly cares about my success.

She always answers my zillion questions and takes it upon herself to motivate me and provide technical guidance. They have my dollars and they’re still wanting me to succeed.

5. My new business is a tax-write off. 

The investment I make into the product and any other business expenses (ads, domain purchase, etc) are all write-offs. BOOM.

6. My team has the highest rate of members replacing their 9-5 income. 

Because our team is partnered with a high end product, payouts are higher (ranging from $330 – $2400) per sale. I’m connected with many 6-figure earners and see the success within the team. The 90% automated system, caring mentors, and supportive community want success for everyone!

7. No stocking of product or selling to your network. 

This one is HUGE! I have no quota to meet and once I meet a certain rank, I can stay there FOREVER.

8. I am obsessed with the product. 

You never want to get behind something you don’t truly believe in and this is something that I 100% do!

So, there you have it. The mysterious online marketing gig is a real thing and real people are changing their lives doing it.

I’m so excited to be on board and look forward to connecting with more dream chasers!

Are you ready to jump in?

With Love,

Kaitlyn Marie